Busy

Why Lady Gaga don't want to talk to you:

• she can't hear a thing
• she has no service in the club
• you're breaking up on her
• she cannot hear you
• she's kinda busy
• it's her favourite song
• she doesn't wanna think anymore
• she left her head and heart on the dance floor
• she’s out in the club, sippin’ that bub
• she’s at a party
• she’s sick and tired of her phone ri-ringing
• cause she’ll be dancin’
  
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Weird

Dear Hope,

It is weird, and, I don't mean it in the wrong way, but, I don't think it is a good way either. Yes, I am confused, and do I make yourself confused as well? Today, I suppose to go out with my best friends but I have to call it off at the very last minute because I have something else to do with my mum. When it comes to either you mum or your friends, your mum always win, you wouldn't dare to do anything to hurt her unless you are a heartless monster, and you don't want to end up to be like Si Tanggang do you?

'Pack you bag, because we are going back to school.'

Oh, back to that weird thing again. What is weird is that, I never write on a blog like this before, and, it is weird for me to go online and first thing that come out from my mind is that, what should I write and publish today. For me, that is weird. Am I a loner? Or am I a freak? No, I think I am neither of it, I used to write and I love to write. If I cannot find a pen and a paper, I would write inside my head. Some would say, that is daydreaming but for me that is writing inside of your mind.

I'll be back to campus in a few days. Yes, holiday is over and a new chapter will soon starts. I would say that I am not ready but also ready is some sort of ways. I received my class schedule today, and, I don't really like it when the administrator re-shuffle the schedule. I will be having my class everyday including Friday, it has been a while since I last had a class on Friday. It's excites me to have a class on Friday, to wake up early on Friday and to go to the class and worrying about the parking.

'We read to know that we are not alone.'

I am going back to my hometown tomorrow I think, until Saturday. That means, I will be away from my laptop and internet. Usually I bring them along but this time I decide to leave it in peace at home. I want my few days of holiday to be away from this world. I need my time. Time to be alone. Just me, time and my brain. So, that means, I would not be updating my blog for a few days and I hope it'll be ok for you. I hope one find some other ways to amuse one self.

I am glad that I would be away from you. I can go back, pick up a book, and read. You know how I love reading. Reading is something that I treasure so much. I adore books as much as I adore the author because I think they are genius in their own way. I get fascinated each and everytime I lay my eyes on the pages and pages of a book. It never bores or tires me. It's always something new and exciting each and evertime. Next, I will pick up a fairytale. It has been ages since I last read a fairytale and I'm going to start with Grimm's Fairytale. I once read it long time ago when I was a toddler and now I am going to read it again because it never bores me. I hope I can read more before the class starts because by that time I would get myself busy doing stuff rather than having time to read. Fortunately, I'll always find a time to sneak in, sit by myself in a quite and comfortable position to read. I would read if I feel down. Nothing is better to be alone and to read when one is feeling sentimental.

'If you see the magic in a fairytale, you can face the future.'

I guess I should stop here before I get weirder and more weirder. I found my love and I am addicted to it. I can't help it. I hope it will last long. Good night.

Faithfully,
Wish.

Where art thou?

Has anyone ever heard about this I-would-not-called-it-a-movie Paris, Je T'aime? I really want to watch this I-would-not-called-it-a-movie Paris, Je T'aime, and when I mean really, I mean really really really! Has anyone ever watch it? Has anyone has it? Has anyone know where to get it? Or can anyone downloaded it for me :D (I mean it, seriously!) Oh, life!

s'il vous plait?

Vous etes

I am not weird! I am gifted!

Debut

Dear Hope,

So, where should I start. It's 12.53 am and I am lost, I lost my words. Usually at this hour, a lot of things running through my mind, when I closed my eyes, I can see words and words in front of me. I always know what to say and what to write, but, that usually happens when I closed my eyes to sleep. Right now, I am trying to closed my eyes in front of this canvas so that I would again see my words running around. No words, none of them running in front of my eyes and I wonder where could it been. I am not a good writer. I don't know how to write. I just write whatever words that coming out from my mind and I hope it would turn out to be nice, at least to me.

'I already started and I am taking risks.'

I just erased a phrase that I think I would not want to talk about just yet. I already started, I mean writing on this new canvas of my blog. I don't know how many people actually read the crap that I am writing because as far as I'm concern, there are only two persons who've been following my new blog and I don't have any idea if they actually read it. It's not that I am too concern about the number of people who read my blog, it's not a popularity competition, it just that since I first post an entry, I had a vision of my new blog, and, it's bold.

I know some people will distaste what am I doing with this blog because they might get the wrong impression of everything or even me, but to tell you the truth, I don't really give a damn about any of it, because this is me expressing myself, my thought, my mind, my art. So, you may leave if you feel unconformable staying here, and I mean leave respectfully. But, deep down inside, I do hope people do not jump into a conclusion based on what they seen or heard, as if, the hearsay evidence does not carry to much weight, corroborative evidence is much more solid. Do I make myself clear?

'I don't care if people hate me because I feel better talking to the dinosaurs.'

The purpose of I am writing a blog and publish it for the world to see, it is not really for the world to see it. It's just like I am writing a diary and just that I publish it for public to read and not that I want people to read what are the things that I wrote. As I said earlier, this is the way of me expressing myself. I can't force people to like it though, there are haters out there. Yes, there are!

It's 1.12 am right now, and I'm glad because as I lost my words, I actually managed to seek them and put them into a sentence. Although it is a piece of crap, but, for me it is a piece of art. I had found my love, and, I will try to be faithful.

Faithfully,
Wish.

Trick or Treat

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Goo--what?

I would like to live forever, because we should not live forever, because if we were ever supposed to live forever, then we would live forever, but we cannot live forever, which is why I would not live forever.
*miss alabama '94

Set Me Free

SET ME FREE

You mean the world to me,
And I can't get you out of my mind;
I don't really want to,
But I miss you more than anyone could ever know;
I need you here and you're not here,
But your voice sets me free.

Everyday, all I feel is more for you;
I never thought it would be this strong,
but it is, and still, I like this feeling;
You're with me in my heart,
Even though you're so far away;
I know you feel the same way, too.

For you, I do all I can,
But to me, it's not enough;
You say it's more than abundant,
And I feel you in my heart;
I hope so much that this is real,
I just want to hold your hand.

I hope someday that we'll be together,
But for now, I'll take what I can get;
I remember three hour phone conversations,
and in-class text messages;
It makes me smile,
You make me so sure.


I need you here and you're not here


You are the first, my only;
I never want to let you go;
Pretzeled for hours,
Never thinking of anyone else;
I look at your face, and am amazed;
You constantly set me free.

After a time, I finally realized that,
I really do love you;
And was overjoyed,
That you felt the same.
I can't wait for the next time I'm with you;
I miss you very much,
is what I'm trying to get at.

No one else could set me free like you.
You're the only one I want to kiss.
I almost can't stand to be away,
But duty keeps me here.
I want to hold your hand again,
And just be close to you, too.

It's only beginning,
And I hope it won't end;
You're part of my heart,
My soul, my world.
You set me free,
And all the time I'm grinning.


My love for you is a journey


Soon we'll be together again,
And soon I'll be ecstatic;
I'll feel complete once more,
And hold you in my arms;
You'll be with me,
And you'll set me free, then.

I want to be with you forever,
But right now I'm made to wait;
I think of you always,
And will never stop;
My love for you is a journey,
Starting at forever, and ending at never.

And like my love for you,
This poem is never ending;
I find my self adding to it,
And I will always do so;
We will be together, my angel;
It will be true.

You do set me free,
Everytime I think about you;
I can barely stand to be without you,
But in my heart I know I'm truely not;
I'm always with you,
As you're always with me.

*not by me

L'or

June 26 2010

'lost in translation.'

klue urbanscapes

'but am i going crazy.'

klpac

'it's written all over my face'

The love that dare not speak its name

There is no one way to be gay! Being gay does not define who you are- it is merely a part of you. If you think you are "not gay enough" or think you are "too gay" then read this quick guide on how to be gay!

Difficulty: Hard

Time Required: Possibly Years!

Here's How:

'Spend some quality time learning who you are and what you like.'

1.Take time to explore yourself.
Spend some quality time learning who you are and what you like. Remember, there is no one way to be gay. You can be whoever you are. Once you know yourself completely you gain confidence in yourself and in every other aspect of your life.

2.Remove any stereotypes you have about being gay.
The media (and even other gay people) often group gay men into one category. There are stereotypes associated with how we look, dress, talk and act with little recognition of our differences and individual personalities. These stereotypes can get ingrained in your head, making it difficult to be yourself. Once you ignore how you are "supposed to be" and start being who you really are, you will find your own place as a gay man.

'There is no such thing as "not being gay enough" or being "too gay."'

3.Ignore peer pressure from those around you.
Peer pressure can be the toughest thing to overcome. You don't have to be a carbon copy of your friends or a cute boy at the bar. Trust me, the right friends and the right man will appreciate your differences!

4.There is no such thing as "not being gay enough" or being "too gay."
If anyone tells you otherwise they are being dramatic.

5.Open yourself to your own sexuality.
According to the Kinsey Scale, there are different degrees of sexuality. And yes, there are such things as real bisexuals!

'The right friends and the right man will appreciate your differences!'

p/s: for fun purpose only, don't take it seriously, but it's really up to you.

*taken somewhere in the internet :)

No Black No White

Let's have some colours in this blog shall we!

Wishful thought

'God has given you one face, and you make yourself another.'

'Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for the truth.'

Wishful start

"Where there is life there is wishful thinking."

A wishful start on a wishful canvas. 'Hi again' to my old reader and 'Hi, nice to meet you' to my new reader. As you all know, I've been writing and blogging since I was in school, first was at friendster blog, second at myspace blog and third at blogger:

http://worldsmartestkid.blogspot.com

and it has been three years I guess I've been writing junks there and today, I suddenly got the idea and inspiration, thanks to my bestfriend, while I was helping her with her business blog, I was thinking the same, I wanted a new blog, a fresh look, a new name for it. Some, would say, if you wanted a new and fresh start, why don't use the new and hip sites i.e. tumblr etc and some would say, why not just change your old childish template. Yes, I do have account to such sites but I have to admit that I am techno dummy and only blogger is techno dummy friendly site for me :) and why I don't just changed the old template is because I wanted to start new, start with zero entry.

"You must go after your wish. As soon as you start to pursue a dream, your life wakes up and everything has meaning"

If you had noticed, I keep this blog as simple as I can. My old blog is kind of too cute to be true and to childish and I hope by this new look of my new blog I can express the word that I am no longer a boy, I am now a lad. And you might also noticed, what are all those male pictures doing on my blog. Hey, let give it a break ok, is it a crime for me to arouses you with a little of controversy? Nay, you know me better. At the end, I am a lad, so I guess it's not a crime to appreciate other lads beauty isn't it? If a girl can do that then why can't us as a man? And part of it maybe from a pitiful influence of some literature that I've been reading particularly by our dearest Oscar Wilde. Even the description my blog was taken from one of his wonderful works, The Picture of Dorian Gray.

I guess I have write enough for this first entry of my wishful canvas. And why is that it's wishful canvas? You need to read it to know it.

au revoir.